I have a confession to make. The Christmas decorations are still up on the porch. I’m sure I’ll open the mailbox and there it will be; the envelope with the words NOTICE stamped across it in bold, red letters. I’ll rush home to open the ominous envelope and read, ‘you have 10 days to take down your Christmas decor. If you fail to comply, blah, blah, blah…..see section 43a of Homeowners Association Handbook…yadda, yadda, yadda.’
It’s easy to forget about the front porch because we come and go through the garage door which is in the back of the house. I was only reminded tonight when we saw our guests to the door. I think my face turned two shades of pink when I saw the dried up pine needles flopping from the wreath and grabbing my friends hair. I may have even thought a curse word.
It was already embarrassing enough that the same pile of Christmas decorations were in the same spot on the floor as last week. Not only that, but the tree is still up. I finally explained and told my friend, “I know it looks like I’m not making any progress, but I am. I’m taking my time and really organizing everything before I put it all away.”
I think she bought it.
No, truth be told, I have held off on taking down the tree because I really am trying to reorganize. It has turned into a larger than life project that includes the garage and almost every closet in the house. But, every time I look at the tree, my feelings waver back and forth between wanting to give myself a pat on the back for not rushing the process, and feeling as floppy and dried up as those pine needles hanging on my front door.
Having a fully decorated Christmas tree doesn’t feel like progress, but it is. Every pile I make, every blank wall space I create, and every twinkling light on the Christmas tree brings me one step closer to accomplishing my goal. They are like little buds waiting to open and reveal something beautiful.
So, I will cut myself some slack and keep at it, one task at a time. I’m starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel, and I’m really excited about some of the projects that are going to come from this little adventure.
See you in class,